Life Lessons

This past year, I learned some incredible lessons from some private personal trauma, the death of my father, moving, the death of my nephew in Iraq, etc. etc. My life has been a total soap opera over the past 16 months. But I learned that, in the beginning of each new thing it was really scary, there didn't seem to be any hope. But then something would happen and I would see that there was a reason for whatever I was feeling. I would begin to see a little glimmer of how life could be and that would give me hope. It was kind of like peering through a keyhole, seeing glimmers but not being able to see into the whole room. Then little by little the door to a new chapter of my life would open, until I could see into the whole room and then finally step into it.

In Seattle, I have felt the same way. So many times I have asked "what to hell am I doing here?". But today, I saw that first glimmer, the inching of the door opening and the possibilities of the chapter of my life that is before me. I have to say it was breathtaking and absolutely wonderful... Now I need to be patient and wait for the door to open and not try to rush it.